So I'm about to start my fourth week. I'm excited that I'm still on this journey. I say I'm excited because for a few moments this week I didn't know if I was going to be able to continue. So I'm really glad that I'm back to the point of being excited. This week I had to deal with feelings of loneliness & depression. My life long way of dealing with these feelings has been to eat foods that I think will make me feel better and for more days than I want to admit I tried to use those foods to ease my loneliness & depression. Every time I did I felt horrible and that made me feel even more depressed. But you know what? When I put on my jeans they are so big on me that they keep falling off and I can sit in them without feeling like I'm gonna die from the pressure (because they were so tight). I know that the only reason they fit like this is because of the successful days that I've had eating raw in the last 3 weeks. I mean it's only been 3 weeks and they are falling off! Imagine if I did this for 3 months or three years....I would need a whole new wardrobe and I would realize my dreams of being a "normal" sized person; able to walk in the park or in the mall without excruciating back pain; able to go hiking with my friends; I wouldn't have to be afraid that I'm gonna die of a heart attack or get some horrible disease because I'm morbidly obese so I recommit myself to this journey. I will do this because I know it's what I need to do...I know it's best for me. I've wasted too much of my life allowing my weight to keep me from fulfilling my life's purpose and I don't want to live that way anymore. SO I AM DOING THIS, I AM DOING THIS, I AM DOING THIS!!!!
If anyone has any suggestions on things I can do to combat feelings that make me want to eat foods that poison my body, they would be greatly appreciated. I try to practice visualization exercises and they really help but sometimes the feelings just overwhelm me.
Thanks to everybody who has taken the time write words of encouragement.
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I craved chicken wings and beer the first month when feeling depressed. It was difficult at times, but you just need to remind yourself of how good you are going to feel once the detox is over. All blues will melt away and you will be happy inside and out. I turned my thinking around so if I felt depressed or moody I would eat a food that would benefit my body instead of re-tox it! Meditation or self hypnosis might be a wonderful tool to help you achieve more inner balance. If you want I can send you one of my hypnosis mp3's to help you cope! Let me know!