So lately I have been realy bummed and it’s driving me insane. When I quit smoking pot and drinking, it will be 4 months June 14th, I thought that I was done with being down. I wouldn’t say that I am depressed, just confused, I have all this energy, for the most part, but at the same time, I lack all motivation. When I was smoking all the time, I was very nervous and anxious, scared to be in public even, I knew that it would take a while to get back to normal, but I honestly did not think that t would take this long. I need a hobby or something…I also need to not work as much as I do. I work 6 days a week and 2 of those das I work 14 hours.I am also having a bit of a dilemma with my current work situation. My sister helped me get this job and it has the potential to pay well and I get a lot of benefits. I am worried about all the toxins I am exposing myself to(I work in a paint store and on the labels of the tint canisters there are warning labels about cancer and 4 girls that have worked there in the past have had misscarriages.eeeeek) I don’t know what to do, I really liked the job at first and now it is just like any oher job I have had, I hate it. I hate being so inconsistent.It is really starting to take a toll on me, especially all the food preperation. I feel like I am alone, I don’t have any raw friends or know of how to go about meeting them. Sorry if this is a jumbled rant or not the right place for it but I am so confused and everyone has been so helpful with all my other questions and concerns.