naomit

I went fully raw last summer and I was training (gym and classes) about 6 days a week. I got super lean, my energy, concentration and happiness was through the roof. I was building muscle and getting really strong! Then the winter hit, it became a lot easier to eat cooked food and just be normal vegan. For a few months my diet was shocking, I kept going for the highly processed vegan junk foods and with a history of an eating disorder it wasn't doing me any good. I started to battle bullemia again, then I went raw and it was heaven! I couldn't understand why I ever stopped it. Met a guy and I started to slip again, he was telling me I was crazy and I wouldn't be healthy, so again I stopped! He soon disappeared and just recently in the past couple of weeks I have been eating whole foods only, predominantly raw, having a cooked meal sort of evening time, I guess you could say raw till 4. I am already noticing that after my fruit meals or smoothies in the day I am fine, then the cooked meal completely drains me! I can't complete any uni work because my body seems to just instantly become super tired and my brain doesn't want to work!  Fruitarian keeps on calling me and I want to answer.!!! I guess I am just worried that if I go raw I won't be able to build muscle - strength training is something I love and don't want to give it up - plus I am thinking I live in London, which isn't the best place to be raw! Although there are numerous raw cafes here so it can't be that bad. So, all my babbling over with, if there is anyone out there who can offer me advice?! I would love to be a fruitarian again! I was the happiest I have ever been in the summer, I would eat banana nicecream on tap! :) Thanks guys. Naomi, 26, Richmond, London, UK.