I am having trouble staying raw. I have really, really good intentions, but a really, really bad addiction to cooked food. I don't know if this is physical or emotional, but either way it's really hard for me to resist eating certain foods (noodles, beans, bread...) and I tend to suddenly find them in my mouth after days of not eating them... So, my problem is that I live in a cooked (mostly vegan) household, and I am the one that makes dinner for my family. I make them the foods that I would like to eat, and while I'm making dinner it's a huge struggle not to eat anything. So, last night I made tacos and resisted all throughout preparing dinner, all through dinner, all the way until I started to clean up the kitchen (probably eight-ish). I said, Emily, DON'T eat those refried beans. And I was being really good, and then all of a sudden I had eaten all of the leftover taco filling. Gaahhhhhhh. Then, once I eat a bite of cooked food, I go around the house eating anything I can that is cooked until I am wicked full and feeling sick. This must be some kind of mental trigger, because all of a sudden I've broken my raw streak for the day, and I suppose that I'll just start over in the morning or something and at that point I might as well eat whatever I want. This seems to me like a serious eating disorder. I need to be 100% raw in order to overcome my addictions as well as my various health problems.
Take it easy,