So to be honest, in the past I have dealt with lots of weight issues. I got a little overweight a while back, and when I realized it I went nuts. My self esteem plummeted downward past the point of self loathing, and I started starving myself to lose the weight.
I lost the weight, and then some. I was malnourished, blah blah blah, all the typical anorexic type of stuff. Eventually I crashed, and went straight into binge eating all the time, which led into bulimia, which has been an ongoing thing with me.
When I started raw, I was much much better. My self esteem had begun to go up, I was feeling better, and I was eating healthy. But lately I have been uncontrollably binge eating on cooked foods. Not even healthy cooked foods!! Things like chocolate and donuts and other typical crap.
I feel like shit, my self esteem is TERRIBLE, and my weight is going up again. But for some reason I just can’t stop! It doesn’t help that my budget is super tight right now too.
I don’t know what to do to stop my binge eating and get back on the raw wagon. I’m terrified of getting fat again (I’ve just gained like 8 pounds), and I just can’t describe how terrible I feel about myself. Any advice from anyone?