Back in May I decided that raw foodism was not the way for me. I was too strict with myself, obsessing over food all the time and sort of “looking down” on cooked foods and the people who ate them. In short, I was being a total douche about my eating habits so I stopped obsessing over them and started eating normal, yet healthy, foods.
At first, I loved it. I felt great, both mentally and physically, and even lost a few pounds. But somehow over the course of these past two months that all went straight to hell. I don’t want to go into details, I’m embarrassed about my issues with food. Let’s just say I’ve gained as much weight as one can really gain in two months, my mood is very negative very often, my outlook is pessimistic, and my self-esteem has turned into self-loathing. I avoid seeing people I really like because I’m ashamed of myself. This sucks and I miss my old, confident, and slimmer self.
So I’m diving headfirst back into raw!! I miss how positive I used to feel, I miss how I used to look, and most of all I miss having confidence and self-respect. I didn’t realize all the benefits of being raw until they were gone, and now I want them back!! I feel a little optimistic already :)