Ive been raw for about a month. It was going well overall. Lots of green smoothies, sprouted buckwheat, flax, and fruit. Getting plenty of fats from avocados and olive oil, but gradually I started eating more desserts, probably to get enough calories. I was perpetually full and sick feeling. Constantly thinking about food and recipes. Then my housemate brought home a huge chocolate birthday cake. After a day of resisting, I ate some. I then felt so gross I made myself throw up, which I haven’t done in over a year. Because I have been so pure by eating raw, the cake was such a shock on my system that I couldn’t live with it inside me. Then the same thing happened the next day. I can’t keep doing this. It seems like it may be better for me to be a little less pure because I’m bound to make mistakes and I can’t just throw up every time I do. I’ve decided just to go regular vegan. (I was mostly vegetarian before starting raw). I’m also really late getting my period, and pale and sickly looking, although other than that I feel good. I think raw is best in a perfect world, but I don’t think its possible for me, at least without a professional chef. That’s all…I don’t know why I’m posting this. maybe somebody has been through this and overcome it???
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thanks for the advice everyone, I really appreciate it. I think I probably transitioned to 100% raw too fast and I need to back off a little. Eating totally raw brings on intense food cravings that I’m not ready to deal with. Before I went raw I was on a really high protein diet, and I basically never craved desserts or sugar. Life was pretty good, but after reading the China Study, I realized that that’s no way to eat. I also realized that raw food has magical powers. So now Im in sort of a limbo I guess. It will just take some time to figure it all out. I’m going to try for 60% raw I think, and see how that goes. I am the type of person that feels like a failure if I’m not 100% (a behavior that is synonymous with eating disorders), so being less than 100% is probably good practice for me right now. regarding talking to somebody about it, I wish I could but I don’t really have anybody. I cant afford a good shrink and I just moved to a new place where I am pretty lonely. My only friends here are not that close and they dont understand eating disorders….so this website is the best option, at least its something. it definitely helps to know there are others out there that care and can relate. thanks again you guys!