Hello everyone, my name is Carita and I'm a 19 year-old student living in southern Finland.
(and I'm so sorry for my imperfect English! I hope you can make something out of it ;) )
I feel so relieved for finding this forum, and I'm quite sure it'll be a lot of help during my journey to the raw food diet :)
I wanted to share a little about my background also, to explain a little bit about the reasons behind my decision to go raw.
A few years ago I suffered from anorexia nervosa. My lowest weight (and point) was 92lb at the height of 5'4. I wasn't really ever admitted to hospital, but I was nowhere near healthy either. My heart rate was extremely low from over exercising and restricting. I was completely out of this world, I was very depressed and mentally ill, I've figured it had a lot to do with my brain not capable to function with the little nutrients I gave to my body.
Well, this lasted for nearly 2 years and I'm overly grateful for my quick recovery, mostly due to the support of my family, lots of therapy and my amazing and loving boyfriend.
However, my recovery at first wasn't an easy time for me. Having survived on fruit and vegetable based diet for 2 years, I went completely crazy when I started to introduce new, earlier "forbidden" foods to my diet. I gorged on every junk food I could get my hands on: ice cream, tacos, candies, cookies, white bread, chips... My eating disorder took completely new course, and I began to slide to bulimia. I was more depressed than ever, gained huge amounts of weight and felt miserable.
Thankfully my crazy eating behavior lasted only for 4 months, but still thinking about that time makes me want to cry.
I still go to therapy and this has helped me more than I believe anything else for me. I feel I'm mentally 95% healed, this means that I eat enough to support myself, I allow myself treats every now and then and I've completely gotten out of my former anorexic mindset; although I'm sure it'll take a long time to fully accept my body as it is. I've even managed to keep my weight in a healthy number after being vegan for 1 Â½ years.
What does this all have to do with my decision then? I still feel the effect of my former disease in my body. I can't eat too much cooked food, bread, pasta and other grains make me really bloated. I get crazy sugar highs from just a bite of a cookie, and later on I feel completely exhausted. I still feel that I'm not getting everything out of my diet, even though I eat enough to maintain my weight.
I wouldn't be making this transition if I didn't know I was 100% ready for it. I know I'm not going to fool myself into eating too little ever again, but I want food to make me also feel good. I hate suffering from eating since I love food!
I'm also excited of the new foods I'm going to try for the first time in my life, and also, enjoy a luxury for me which means guilt-free eating (after all these years in therapy I still count calories :( ). I'm sure the new quite complicated methods of preparing food won't be much of a problem for me since I've always been interested in cooking :)
I was thinking about starting my journey first by 80% comittment. This means that I'll probably be eating e.g organic rice cakes and probably unsweetened soymilk.
I'm also probably taking organic fish back to my diet since it's cheap and easy to get from here (I can even go and catch the fish myself :D)
Now I also realise that I still have plenty of studying to do, and I'm a bit confused of all the possibilities. Is soymilk raw? It's made from soybeans right (:o)
But I am sorry for writing such a long autobiography, I might have gotten a bit carred away :)
All I really wanted to say is nice to meet you everyone (: