I have a feeling that I may not be the only one, because about a month or two ago I was active on a thread that dealt with something similar. While I am completely happy with the way I feel when I’m 100% raw, I still “stumble” or whenever I’m with I’m with my boyfriend, I’m not completly raw. But When I’m on my own, and I do stumble, I feel so guilty. And I get angry with myself – almost irate. I feel so disapointed and hopeless that I just wish I could lock myself away. I’ve got the mantra “cooked food is poison” stuck in my head, but it seems that sometimes it’s not enough to keep me from eating cooked foods. Does anyone else go through this, or I am simply completely unbalanced?
Now, I do have history of bulimia (please don’t write me off because of this)... but I guess what I’m trying to say is that I think that this wonderfully healthy diet is seeming to bring out my old demons…cause i’m trowing up again. Is there anyone else out there who is going through this??