warning:this may not be your typical introduction…
Hello there! This is my first time attempting to talk about raw foods and whatnot. I think I’m just going to jump right into why I’m here:
I’ve been sort of ‘experimenting’ as to find some way to rid myself of ills for quite some time.
In high school I had quite bad acne in some form or another (probably a lot less so than I perceived). I tried many things to attempt to make this go away, all had more unintended effects than I anticipated. Benzoyl peroxide completely dried my face out to the point of myself becoming a giant flaky mess. I developed quite the hand washing (OCD?) ritual, showered far too often in an attempt to wash away the film on my face that turned orange any colored clothing (I’m a fan of black) which meant more dryness thanks to super hot water, attempted overdoses of vitamins (b5 and a) seemed to help for a bit, but then not so much (bring on the diarrhea, not a school-friendly situation when they’re all covered in feces and blocked up, peeping heads over the door that didn’t lock, etc). The worst of it in my senior year led to me nearly failing to graduate (Lucky for me, the good student I was, I’d already enough credits to pass). I’d come to the point where I couldn’t so much as leave the house in the day without freaking out…I didn’t want to be seen…I had over a month of entirely missed days, not in a row mind you, but over the course of the second half of the year. So finally in a cooking class I’d been shoved into thanks to required nonsense classes, I stopped eating meat starting with the chicken meal we had to make (Of course I’d been sympathetic for a while, having seen disturbing videos and read horrifying stories of animal cruelty). Anyways, one thing led to another, and poof I was a vegan…hardly an A+ vegan diet, but vegan none-the-less.
Oh right, you remember that bit about OCD? Well my hands dried out to the point of cracking and bleeding, mostly at the knuckles and wrist if I remember correctly, which was gross enough to make a girl in a class I’d had nearly vommit.
So after school came summer, I hadn’t applied to any colleges…I didn’t think I could get in, seeing as my GPA took a nose dive, I’d slept through my senior year, and I’d drifted into depression. I’d mostly get online, or bike at night. I slept more than half the day, everyday. One summer I lived on veggie burgers , maybe one or two a day. Another half year or so I medicated myself with strong beer I’d steal from my stepdad, who’d bring home a 24 pack every day…so he didn’t notice; I gained like 60 pounds (talk about stretch marks). Now, as bad as that sounds, for my height, I was still within “normal” ranges.
So fast forward: I was DONE with all that crap after having done some thinking and research. I decided to round out my diet, ditch anything I needed to apply, showered much more infrequently…and I waited…and waited…and finally I’d sort of ‘stabilized’ in the sense that I stopped breaking out so badly…
The hand washing just as rough as before, and then I started getting little bumps on my arms earlier this year. More bumps. More bumps. Until they took up my forearms and the back of my hands…doctors misdiagnosed it…After having seen a dermatologist, she obviously didn’t care at all, had no tests done, nothing…but I was given steroid shots three times, none making it go away for more than a week or so…, only to return to my World’s largest scabs. Finally I found out it was eczema on my own (most likely of my own doing = “Xerotic”), which just in the past month I’ve made go ‘away’ thanks to this borage oil formulation at the local health food store. Did I mention that I didn’t have health insurance and that the dermatologist also prescribed a three-hundred dollar four ounce bottle of steroids on steroids…which I used far longer than I should have since it NEVER went away. I’d wash my hands under max heat water and scratch so much so you might think I’d made a blood sacrifice of one of our cats.
So onwards to now: I’ve been mostly raw/all raw for say…the past few months? (I have a horrible memory for things like that). I don’t break out at all anymore, maybe little bumps that go away over night once in a while. My hands are normal looking now and amazing unscarred. And finally the cloud over my head is gone and not quite so depressed as was the case before. I can’t shave though, I still do get extremely dry facial skin if i wash AT ALL, so I don’t, which works out well for me with all the saved time.
I usually make green smoothies all the time, as I can’t stand the multi-step recipes that in my experiences all turn out awful, or inedible. I’ve been working with what I have which isn’t much…some 20 buck blender that makes me do most of the work. But they turn out ok, but they don’t look so hot coming out the other end, dark green/brown/black looking poop. On my good days it at least sticks together…on the bad, it just plain falls out, all chunky and disintegrated “turn the toilet water green”, gross.
And … more current: Somebody took our scale, but I can tell I keep losing weight little by little and I’m getting worried. Maybe some sort of absorption problem. I have a funny rib that sticks out on my left side, maybe one missing…who knows… which doesn’t look so pleasant with low body fat…and I’m tired of feeling my butt bone on hard chairs.
So yeah, I’ve come a long way from the dozen Pepsi-chugger of my youth.
I didn’t write that all up for pity, and I probably missed something somewhere,but I figure it’s best to know where I was so you might understand me better. So now I gotta bike to store before they close!
Oh right, I forgot mention …HELP!!! (thanks in advance)
gulp, here goes, (click post topic…do it DO IT….)